So, here we are at the end of another school year. It seems like just yesterday, that I was sat at the Year Six leavers assembly sobbing my heart out as you were leaving primary school. I remember literally feeling like my heart was aching, as I couldn’t bear the thought of you leaving the closeted community of your gorgeous small village school. Emotions were high and it really felt like I was loosing you as a small child and about to let you go our in the world and start finding your path as a young adult.
To this day, I can remember the dull aching in my chest and being so tearful all of the time. I’d literally just find myself crying at any given moment thinking of letting you out into the big bad world. For instance, you were going to have to get a bus to school… This would be the first time in your entire life that you had ventured out without being accompanied by an adult. How would I know that you’d survived the journey and not been abducted by aliens on the way? I felt so out of control.
You were also about to join a secondary school year with 300 over children. At primary school there were less than 20 children in your class. Although I never once showed it, I wondered how you would cope? Would you get lost and how would you fit in with so many other students?
As a parent, I can honestly say that leaving year six and the start of secondary school was one of the most stressful and emotional periods of motherhood I’ve had to encounter. You think life is tough when you have a baby, but then your child start to grow up and the stress and worry is still there, but in a much different way.
Imagine letting your baby go out for the first time on their own without you…
On the first day of secondary school, you went in so smart and so brave. You hopped on the bus and didn’t seem to be too nervous at all. But I knew inside that you were. You had your new backpack, pencil case and uniform and were raring to go. I panicked all day and felt so worried for you.
But fast forward to the end of the year and I couldn’t be prouder. It’s not all be easy breezy, you’ve had to learn new skills. The biggest one being to manage your time. You’ve learned that it’s no good to do the homework you love the most first. Prioritisation has been a big lesson. You’ve realised it’s important and so you must work through your homework in due date rather than preference. You were so overwhelmed at first by homework. I remember you saying to me “I feel like my time’s no longer my own, I always have something hanging over my head”. Errrmmm…. Yes, that’s right – welcome to the rest of your life! Seriously though, you’re now in the swing of things and I never even have to chase you to get your homework done any more.
You’ve also had to learn how to adapt to lots of different characters. Girls can be tricky, especially when they’re hormonal tweenagers. Frienemies and friendship groups are tough. You’ve quickly found the girls who are on the same level as you and have formed friendships. You like to have just a few close friends. This is okay, it’s better to have meaningful friendships than a whole load of people that really aren’t friends at all.
There has been one boy has been horrid to you, but you were strong and stood up for yourself. The maturity and confidence you showed to do this was amazing. You knew that you couldn’t let him know you were weak or you’d become a victim of his. Well done you, you’ve an inner strength in you that will get you far.
Despite being shy and sometimes un-confident in your academic abilities you have had the best possible year I could ask or wish for. We received a postcard to say you’d been awarded as a Star Student. I then attended your school year assembly where you received an award for Technology. But the thing that blew me away the most was your first school report. You sweeped an effort grade A in every single subject… Literally, what more could I ask for?
As a Mum, I feel slightly panicked that one whole year has gone so very quickly. How can that be? You’ve matured so much in this first short year. Part of me thinks that before I know it, I’ll blink and you’ll be leaving school altogether. Then what, you’ll be an adult! Five years seems such a short amount of time to be in secondary education (and we only have four left). You’ll be choosing your options at Christmas and I don’t feel ready for it yet. I just want you to be little for a while longer. But I can’t stop time and so I’m going to embrace it all. I’ll be here to love, support you and cheer you along through your next school year in the best way that I can.
In the meantime, I’m going to embrace the summer holidays and enjoy spending lots of time with you. I’m looking forward to a summer of fun and memory making…